Im researching on tokyo.. almost one month to go...
And i have lots of stuff, including the subway guides and airport limousine service... am so proud of myself...
id post up the itinery, with photos, once done...
so amazed at my research and organising skills
Esta Travels!
Sunday, July 20, 2008
蘇打綠
There is this chinese pop group called 蘇打綠
If you see them, tell me
COS IM GOING TO BEAT THEM UP, ESPECIALLY THE BLOODY VOCALIST
Once i was at kbox, their song came up...
I was screaming in agony pressing "Eject"
then when i walked to HMV, it was playing... TAMADE!!!!
IT IS NOT SINGING
NOT SINGING!!!!
the guy tamade sound like a faggot... singing thru his nose...
machiam half asthma..
I can sing like that too lor!
but i will sound so freaking disgusting!!!
FAGGOT FAGGOT...
Pls dont let them come up with another album, otherwise id personally chase them and kill them to spare the world of their lousy NOT-singing
If you see them, tell me
COS IM GOING TO BEAT THEM UP, ESPECIALLY THE BLOODY VOCALIST
Once i was at kbox, their song came up...
I was screaming in agony pressing "Eject"
then when i walked to HMV, it was playing... TAMADE!!!!
IT IS NOT SINGING
NOT SINGING!!!!
the guy tamade sound like a faggot... singing thru his nose...
machiam half asthma..
I can sing like that too lor!
but i will sound so freaking disgusting!!!
FAGGOT FAGGOT...
Pls dont let them come up with another album, otherwise id personally chase them and kill them to spare the world of their lousy NOT-singing
Saturday, July 12, 2008
yawn~ sunday
yawn sunday...
im probably going to my hairdresser's in a while cos im so bored!
yeah and im sorry that my work weekdays were so rotten
in fact, so rotten that i took a day off cos my stomach was not feeling good
nah
nvm
i dreamt i scolded my Director last night. hhahaa
crazy dream
im home today. realised i forgot to pay a very important bill...
but nvm
id get to it later
im looking forward to dinner later
its Wang Family's best Chicken rice in the world
maxwell's cannot compare...
a pity that Dan cannot come over for dinner cos his parents just came
so they are having dinner...
nvm im having chicken rice.. with aunt n grandma too
i may be giving away my burberry wallet which was barely used
until i fell head over heels with Vernis Billfold.. so small and pretty
yawn... u can tell what kind of mood im in.. random and "boh"
tata til next time....
Im counting down to Japan... 1.5 months to go!!!
im probably going to my hairdresser's in a while cos im so bored!
yeah and im sorry that my work weekdays were so rotten
in fact, so rotten that i took a day off cos my stomach was not feeling good
nah
nvm
i dreamt i scolded my Director last night. hhahaa
crazy dream
im home today. realised i forgot to pay a very important bill...
but nvm
id get to it later
im looking forward to dinner later
its Wang Family's best Chicken rice in the world
maxwell's cannot compare...
a pity that Dan cannot come over for dinner cos his parents just came
so they are having dinner...
nvm im having chicken rice.. with aunt n grandma too
i may be giving away my burberry wallet which was barely used
until i fell head over heels with Vernis Billfold.. so small and pretty
yawn... u can tell what kind of mood im in.. random and "boh"
tata til next time....
Im counting down to Japan... 1.5 months to go!!!
Friday, July 11, 2008
Me:
I just realised i have lost my last remaining strains of faith and liking in the job
like if passion is a flame, the glowing splinter that was there last week has just succumbed to the carbon dioxide that is sibico and all those 马后炮's fart poof! gone!
im going to email _____soon
id see if this is impulsive anger, or is it permanent bitterness
den id tell her what i really feelas objectively as i can
with such an unhealthy mind, i dont know if its in everyone's best interest that i stay
im afraid that the poison will consume me
this is because i worked so damn hard
and this is what i get
fucking load shit of _____ finger pointing, purposeful humiliation masked in "presentation"
u'd understand when u see the slides she want me to amend
if i never worked hard, i'd never have this bitter venom in me right now
i not not only fucking want to cry each time i think about it.
i feel like quitting
otherwise, this feeling will turn into some other strength that is super super not Godly
cos i will fight this war back after a long period of "humble" silence
.
.
.
Him:
i guess your laoda still does not have the full picture of what you've gone through. Nor the extent of this experience's effect on you. Wonder how she would advise you if you told her. But im sure she would definitely understand. Like i said before, everyone with eyes can see you are overworked. i guess at some point when the passion is lost (for those who come in with it anyway), what replaces it is either numbness / emptiness, or cynicism. For me its cynicism definitely. I guess at this point its the same for you. Together we are the _____Cynics! Sworn to seek out optimistic and naive thinking and smite it to oblivion!!!! And our Arch Enemy being Mistress Red Dot!!!! :)
it certainly is very tempting to quit. I'd feel the same way. Actually i have felt this way on many many occasions. But from a spectators point of view, i still feel you are doing relatively well (minus the letters problem, which is a CHRONIC problem for some of us, and such stuff) Usually when these things happen its not just due to simple factors, but usually a combination of different situations resulting in the outcome. Many of which are beyond our control...or beyond our ability to do so at a certain point in time because of certain constraints placed on us.
I think _______as definitely more plans for you in future, and he is definitely an objective person. Im sure he knows what kind of person _______ is, and the morale busting effects she has on people. I wonder what he will say to you during your "de-briefing" for this case, which he said he would do. My feel is that he doesnt see it as this incident completely overwriting every good you have done since you've been here. I guess if you stay on, you will definitely go further :)
Also, dont forget. You have the support of your friends, ______. All these people i dare say care very much about you and will be there if you need anything.
Not to mention Him, who is always there watching over you. Whatever it is, im sure we can overcome it. Let the bitterness flow through you now because its the dominant emotion, but then step back and pray. Hopefully with His help, it will flow out of you and move on. People who do this to you i.e. ________, will have to reap the rotten fruit of their actions eventually. My guess is she will have plenty to reap, a lot to answer for....This is an idealogy that I have always held fast to and was just discussing with HH just now. He is also a big fan of Karma. You can get through this. You have so many people behind you, as well as divine help.
p.s funny right for a period of time, you were advising me not to quit. Now its my turn :) we both need to support each other and take turns to do this
I just realised i have lost my last remaining strains of faith and liking in the job
like if passion is a flame, the glowing splinter that was there last week has just succumbed to the carbon dioxide that is sibico and all those 马后炮's fart poof! gone!
im going to email _____soon
id see if this is impulsive anger, or is it permanent bitterness
den id tell her what i really feelas objectively as i can
with such an unhealthy mind, i dont know if its in everyone's best interest that i stay
im afraid that the poison will consume me
this is because i worked so damn hard
and this is what i get
fucking load shit of _____ finger pointing, purposeful humiliation masked in "presentation"
u'd understand when u see the slides she want me to amend
if i never worked hard, i'd never have this bitter venom in me right now
i not not only fucking want to cry each time i think about it.
i feel like quitting
otherwise, this feeling will turn into some other strength that is super super not Godly
cos i will fight this war back after a long period of "humble" silence
.
.
.
Him:
i guess your laoda still does not have the full picture of what you've gone through. Nor the extent of this experience's effect on you. Wonder how she would advise you if you told her. But im sure she would definitely understand. Like i said before, everyone with eyes can see you are overworked. i guess at some point when the passion is lost (for those who come in with it anyway), what replaces it is either numbness / emptiness, or cynicism. For me its cynicism definitely. I guess at this point its the same for you. Together we are the _____Cynics! Sworn to seek out optimistic and naive thinking and smite it to oblivion!!!! And our Arch Enemy being Mistress Red Dot!!!! :)
it certainly is very tempting to quit. I'd feel the same way. Actually i have felt this way on many many occasions. But from a spectators point of view, i still feel you are doing relatively well (minus the letters problem, which is a CHRONIC problem for some of us, and such stuff) Usually when these things happen its not just due to simple factors, but usually a combination of different situations resulting in the outcome. Many of which are beyond our control...or beyond our ability to do so at a certain point in time because of certain constraints placed on us.
I think _______as definitely more plans for you in future, and he is definitely an objective person. Im sure he knows what kind of person _______ is, and the morale busting effects she has on people. I wonder what he will say to you during your "de-briefing" for this case, which he said he would do. My feel is that he doesnt see it as this incident completely overwriting every good you have done since you've been here. I guess if you stay on, you will definitely go further :)
Also, dont forget. You have the support of your friends, ______. All these people i dare say care very much about you and will be there if you need anything.
Not to mention Him, who is always there watching over you. Whatever it is, im sure we can overcome it. Let the bitterness flow through you now because its the dominant emotion, but then step back and pray. Hopefully with His help, it will flow out of you and move on. People who do this to you i.e. ________, will have to reap the rotten fruit of their actions eventually. My guess is she will have plenty to reap, a lot to answer for....This is an idealogy that I have always held fast to and was just discussing with HH just now. He is also a big fan of Karma. You can get through this. You have so many people behind you, as well as divine help.
p.s funny right for a period of time, you were advising me not to quit. Now its my turn :) we both need to support each other and take turns to do this
Tuesday, July 08, 2008
Sunday, July 06, 2008
True Sunday
A true sunday is a sunday ...
with a relaxed mind...
without obligations ...
(no we did not skip church.... we go to saturday service.. bleah)
Dan & I had the whole apartment to ourselves cos his parents are away (actually, they are staying in malaysia for these 2 weeks.. weekdays we kind of dont feel it because we work so late and get back to bathe, watch an episode of xfiles/allymcbeal/friends and sleep)
We woke up late cos we stayed up t0 watch jacky wu shows last night..
Walked over to rail mall... and had breakfast
Can u believe how close this nice place is...
anyway i didnt take those pics cos no one carries a camera to breakfast
but yep
anyway we had brunch at Ah Mei kaya toast
and went on to execute the plan... marketing at Cold Storage!
we grabbed these
- 2 canned curry (Dan does not have a lot of faith in my cooking so im going to prove him wrong, u'll see... nah anyway these are for the rest of the week)
- a pack of large british sausages
- one onion (30 cents)
- a pack of minced beef
- Ragueletto pasta sauce
- macaroni
- Laughing cow cheese cubes
- orange juice
- chips
- magazines...
aw aw wonderful sunday...
den it rained and we went back.
And started cleaning up! swept, cleaned, wiped, organised...
hot so went for a bath and started to surf a little in the living room.... when i realise how nice the view is...
yeah there is a pool view and all
but im starting to like the living room...
nice and quiet place
ok anyway from my market-ing list you'd probably have guessed what we wanted to make...
actually I cooked... its a gift to Dan cos he is so sweet but i am so poor...
MEAT SAUCE w Diced ONIONS + mushrooms MACARONI BOLOGNAISE!!!
If you think it looks gross, its NOT.. i think its actually q yummy given this is my first try
and its not easy leh... have to dice garlic and onions and fry the meat and stuff
But Dan is very happy with it
Cos I am the first galfriend to cook for him..
And he is the first boyfriend I cooked for (maggie mee not included)
and he is also the first guy who cooked for me ( a whole yummy american breakfast back on my birthday.. with yucky coffee made with love)
*** I wish every Sunday can be like this ****
Thank You for this Sunday, the rest, the food, the company...
Saturday, July 05, 2008
Kate multicolore
Dan bought me something that really cheered me up...
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.
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Monogram Multicolore Kate !
So pretty!!! I love it
He kind of tricked me into letting him buy it..
nvm the process, but how sweet!
He knows how much i like it, but how poor i am and must risk it being unavailable or increase in price by the time im back from tokyo and go back to normal financial status
im too poor now to buy him anything back, but he doesnt mind.. but come payday, i wanna buy him the HTC diamond phone he is lemming for..
awwww...
anyway i just realised he bought me all my LVs
and this is my 7th designer item....
Goodness, it is a disease, an addiction...
please cure me.
Thank you.. For Lord you triumph over the fear that the devil causes.. the devil's evil doings
Even if the reporter decides to do the article in the end...
I still know I walk fearless in Your divine majesty...
And thank you.. for Dan.. not because of the gifts, but for his heart in always being there and seeking to make me happy.. no matter how work screws me up....
Thursday, July 03, 2008
this is a v stressful period for you. if i was in your position, i would definitely feel like quitting too.
it is definitely not you. You are already trying your best. But eventually there is a limit to how much a person can do. They cannot just pile work on people and expect them to devote every waking moment to their work. You are doing your best, but of course have limits to how much you can do in a day before you keel over from exhaustion. You should not blame yourself for this. Anyone with eyes can tell that you are being overworked to your limit and beyond. as long as you do not say anything, they will just keep loading and loading. thats how it is. Is it the system? probably.
I understand the necessity for the system because it is a product of the environment and its demands. So who suffers? The people in it. Yet at the same time theres nothing that can be done about it. I am one of those who used to blame the system, but now realised theres no point. No one man can change things, because it is inter-linked with society and how it functions. in the end, its always up to the individual to decide how much they want to give. If they are perceived as to not giving enough, they get blamed, if they give too much and other aspects of their life (health, family etc) suffer, the people int he system will jsut say its poor life management or whats that new buzz word thats going round nowadays "Work Life Harmony" = Poor Work Life Harmony, and just brush it off.
as far as im concerned, the whole situation you are in now, you are not to be blamed. if anyone does blame you within my earshot, i will defend your position at all cost
it is definitely not you. You are already trying your best. But eventually there is a limit to how much a person can do. They cannot just pile work on people and expect them to devote every waking moment to their work. You are doing your best, but of course have limits to how much you can do in a day before you keel over from exhaustion. You should not blame yourself for this. Anyone with eyes can tell that you are being overworked to your limit and beyond. as long as you do not say anything, they will just keep loading and loading. thats how it is. Is it the system? probably.
I understand the necessity for the system because it is a product of the environment and its demands. So who suffers? The people in it. Yet at the same time theres nothing that can be done about it. I am one of those who used to blame the system, but now realised theres no point. No one man can change things, because it is inter-linked with society and how it functions. in the end, its always up to the individual to decide how much they want to give. If they are perceived as to not giving enough, they get blamed, if they give too much and other aspects of their life (health, family etc) suffer, the people int he system will jsut say its poor life management or whats that new buzz word thats going round nowadays "Work Life Harmony" = Poor Work Life Harmony, and just brush it off.
as far as im concerned, the whole situation you are in now, you are not to be blamed. if anyone does blame you within my earshot, i will defend your position at all cost
1 more day
Sorry, the article will be out tomorrow cos the media had more enquiries
one more day
its like waiting for death
one more day
its like waiting for death
Wednesday, July 02, 2008
sqa suicide
The reporter insist to cover the story
It will be out tomorrow
My case
My lack of confidence back then in my own judgement...
Is now potentially the lethal weapon that can destroy all my good and hard work all these time.
*******
Lauban is still very nice to me about it.. even in the midst of fighting this big fire I have lapsed a few times by not being thorough in my report, typo errors, sentences that did not make sense, weird numberings in a reply to be signed off by him
he just said "xiao jie ar"
when he could have just yelled at me then and there
He did not reveal my identity as the officer who lacked discretion
He emailed me to say that he had been through more fatal cases. He accepts learning from mistake so long as we dont repeat it, and told me "da nan bu si, bi you hou fu"
sigh
how can i ever make up for this?
It will be out tomorrow
My case
My lack of confidence back then in my own judgement...
Is now potentially the lethal weapon that can destroy all my good and hard work all these time.
*******
Lauban is still very nice to me about it.. even in the midst of fighting this big fire I have lapsed a few times by not being thorough in my report, typo errors, sentences that did not make sense, weird numberings in a reply to be signed off by him
he just said "xiao jie ar"
when he could have just yelled at me then and there
He did not reveal my identity as the officer who lacked discretion
He emailed me to say that he had been through more fatal cases. He accepts learning from mistake so long as we dont repeat it, and told me "da nan bu si, bi you hou fu"
sigh
how can i ever make up for this?
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