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I think those who know me, should know that im very into those designer items lately.
Or what my sis calls "Brand conscious"
Ok la i admit that I have not been frugal. My count of possessions include 2 burberry bags, 1 LV bag, 1 burberry wallet, and just last week Dan got me this LV vernis ludlow...
cos he knows how much i like it... it is so pretty i tell u
(I think he feels bad cos i buy him phones to play with)
Yep but its a road of no return.. u crave and crave after your first item. So i actually did some planning in Jan that I will be getting a weekend Gucci tote. the kind that would look so gorgeous when im wearing 3/4 pants. the kind that you can stuff lots of things in. Den i will try to justify the purchase by saying it can last long and be a diaper bag when i have a kid
oh wait i think i have a picture of it..
so rugged with attitude...
I did my research in the boutique, lady say it costs a $850. I was like ok what... and Dan said it look nicer than other $1K over bags.
Check out my stupid attitude la. $800+ bag i say ok what.
But nvm... im not buying this anymore after this session of drooling. You'd find out why
You know why i planned splurging, cos come tuesday we will be getting our letter telling us how much we are gettng for our:
Performance bonus
+
Growth Bonus
+
Merit Increment ( i hope this brings my salary to the next landmark figure... pls...)
Im expecting a good figure for all 3 items because of what DD told me when i asked him about my grading last year, during appraisal. He was like.. u did well, u will know when you see your bonus (shy laugh)
Got my hopes all up
But im still for conservative estimate. Based on HR minumum calculation-- minimum is like for people who do only their core expected, so not those who did impressive revolutionary stuff that grabbed the management's attention... can get chao chao like... 2 x gross salary
not bad what. So i thought worse case scenario i can get that amount. So i can buy my gucci tote
Sigh
but my brother just entered republic poly. Im actually very thankful to God about his results. He is a guy, the least he must have is a diploma rite.
I kinda feel like things for guys are a lot different. So at times i know its foolish and futile but i'd rather my brother has my brains and luck. Im not saying that Im damn smart or anything... but im at least comfortable. But I will not feel good holding a degree and if my brother didnt make it and end up with no qualifications.
So i used to talk to him, telling him i know how singaporean gals are like. im one myself and i know. Its hard enough to find a gal, but with this education thing in the way...
Ya but thank God everything worked out ok and he got into RP. Good thing there is RP too.
So now, back to the finances
My brother just bought a laptop. Cost my dad about $1.5K. So i figured the only right thing for me to do, being blessed with this bonus, will be to reimburse my dad for that. Its also my duty. My dad has a car and family to support and I dont.
After that I have to pay my credit card bill, and save the rest cos lets face it, im not getting any younger.
and the increment also goes to my brother's increased pocket money for poly.
So bye bye Gucci. I know i will feel a lot better with this decision. I never want to be selfish and indulge in designer bags while my family struggles with another tertiary education.
So I told God , I tried my best. Back in Uni i gave tuition to give myself pocket money. Now Im still paying off my uni fees. Now, i know a lot of people tell me i should watch out for myself instead trying to increase my burden with these little things.
But I know everything makes me a stronger, not bitter person.
:)
I still thank God for everything, you know.
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