Toooo Tokyo!

Im happie...

Not only did I not need to work today... (and shopped the day away)


..

I am jetting off to Tokyo tomorrow night....


byebye peeps~!

Doggie day

This entry is way overdue.. hehe. cos of some incompetent people at work who did not find time to manage their own event and us having to help out in our last 2 weeks before going on leave...

its amazing that i managed to clear work in the end. ha

but still

on National Day, the very much anticipated doggie outing...

Attendees

Bunny

Bunny sis Christine

Dan

Me

Dogtendees:

DouDou

Toffee, at the prime of his manhood

Sugar, the shy lil... ermmm... virgin?

The traumatising was hilarious

this is what I term as Bunny's dream couple. that woman kept ordering toffee to rape sugar

But I have to agree, their temperament matches...

and look how sweet....

Dan & I transformed into uncle-auntie mode that day...
He looks like he is carrying a diaper bag

Dan say he prefer having a dog to having a kid

hahaha

im happy!

and I love Sugar so much~


***** a very lovely outing *******

sundays.. i usually read blogs to catch up with my friend's lives... Do you do the same?

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Had 2 off days this week. I told laoda that it is my sneak preview to my long leave later this month to go to tokyo. Kinda funny taking 2 days off


Dan took his advance theory and passed.

after that we went to watch his favorite superhero. I had some issues with the show as I thought the girl COULD HAVE been more pretty. ok la im shallow la ok...








---> but is this a face that the super manly and cool BATMAN is crazy about, and someone who can make the DA go siao and become 2-faced??


Its needs to get more convincing than this

Its just the realistic truth. The gal NEEDS to be pretty..



Throughout the show i was constantly distracted by her saggy eyebags and cheekbones extended to the lip area... i became a nuisance to Dan. Like when she asked Harvey Dent not to do something, I'd insert dialougue like "Well if you were prettier, i'd listen to you"








Me : (begging) "Yes, please, cut the face up"









Oh did I say? I totally liked the Joker. Heathe Ledger was good but im not going ohhh like everyone else just cos he died. But the Joker points out such truths. My favorite was "if you are good at something, never do it for free"





According to Dan, the king of comics and games and movies, the Joker is one of the most challenging villians. That is sooo appealing.






And I think Batman's voice is damn sexy... only when the suit is on la. Dan explained that its because the suit is too tight and the nasal area is covered. And when he said it, he was so serious and matter of fact. I dont know if I should believe it or not.












So, it wasnt too bad a show. Of course if Katie Holmes were Rachel Dawes, id be much happier










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You would have guess that The Dark Knight was not my kind of show. If you had, you are a friend.


What i wanted to watch was RED CLIFF. after all the hype about a 20 year Woo conceptualization, one cant help but be curious. but check out the timings of the show


Lido (where I went to watch dark knight), 31 Jul :

Red Cliff 9.00pm

(i was like ... no kidding, one timing only? but never mind la im here with the boy to watch batman)


Next day, we went to Plaza Sing for my turn to catch the movie


Plaza Sing, where the walls are plastered with 2 storeys tall Red Cliff movie poster, when I reached at 3.45pm..

Red Cliff - 2.00pm



???!!?!??!?!



so I did not get to watch it.. Instead we watched Money No Enough 2, which is a typical Jack Neo show, where the best actress was the old lady who made our heart ache, and derives inspiration from the cases we handle in our job. I meant my job...



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On thurs night, we met up with collegues + a likeable ex-colleague for a buffet dinner at parkroyal hotel. Siao rite, on leave go and meet colleagues haha



Come to think of it, out of the many that has left the job, this is the only colleague we bother to meet up with.



One had just left on wed, which i really dont think was a great loss. Furthermore, I used to deem her as a friend. Until she abused all the benefits of doubts i granted to her when she was supposed to work under me for a few projects. Since I was the WITs leader, I had to organise a farewell party for her. Gawd. The most obliging thing I had to do


It also says a lot when your friends did not feel like buying you a farewell present


It made me think that many who left are really too selfish and team-spiritless to stay.




i'm getting so cynical..






(23 days to tokyo.....)

itinery in the works

Im researching on tokyo.. almost one month to go...

And i have lots of stuff, including the subway guides and airport limousine service... am so proud of myself...

id post up the itinery, with photos, once done...
so amazed at my research and organising skills

Esta Travels!

蘇打綠

There is this chinese pop group called 蘇打綠

If you see them, tell me


COS IM GOING TO BEAT THEM UP, ESPECIALLY THE BLOODY VOCALIST

Once i was at kbox, their song came up...
I was screaming in agony pressing "Eject"

then when i walked to HMV, it was playing... TAMADE!!!!

IT IS NOT SINGING
NOT SINGING!!!!

the guy tamade sound like a faggot... singing thru his nose...
machiam half asthma..


I can sing like that too lor!
but i will sound so freaking disgusting!!!


FAGGOT FAGGOT...

Pls dont let them come up with another album, otherwise id personally chase them and kill them to spare the world of their lousy NOT-singing

yawn~ sunday

yawn sunday...
im probably going to my hairdresser's in a while cos im so bored!

yeah and im sorry that my work weekdays were so rotten
in fact, so rotten that i took a day off cos my stomach was not feeling good

nah
nvm

i dreamt i scolded my Director last night. hhahaa

crazy dream


im home today. realised i forgot to pay a very important bill...
but nvm
id get to it later

im looking forward to dinner later
its Wang Family's best Chicken rice in the world
maxwell's cannot compare...

a pity that Dan cannot come over for dinner cos his parents just came
so they are having dinner...

nvm im having chicken rice.. with aunt n grandma too
i may be giving away my burberry wallet which was barely used

until i fell head over heels with Vernis Billfold.. so small and pretty

yawn... u can tell what kind of mood im in.. random and "boh"

tata til next time....

Im counting down to Japan... 1.5 months to go!!!

email

Me:

I just realised i have lost my last remaining strains of faith and liking in the job
like if passion is a flame, the glowing splinter that was there last week has just succumbed to the carbon dioxide that is sibico and all those 马后炮's fart poof! gone!

im going to email _____soon
id see if this is impulsive anger, or is it permanent bitterness
den id tell her what i really feelas objectively as i can
with such an unhealthy mind, i dont know if its in everyone's best interest that i stay
im afraid that the poison will consume me
this is because i worked so damn hard
and this is what i get
fucking load shit of _____ finger pointing, purposeful humiliation masked in "presentation"
u'd understand when u see the slides she want me to amend

if i never worked hard, i'd never have this bitter venom in me right now
i not not only fucking want to cry each time i think about it.
i feel like quitting
otherwise, this feeling will turn into some other strength that is super super not Godly

cos i will fight this war back after a long period of "humble" silence




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Him:

i guess your laoda still does not have the full picture of what you've gone through. Nor the extent of this experience's effect on you. Wonder how she would advise you if you told her. But im sure she would definitely understand. Like i said before, everyone with eyes can see you are overworked. i guess at some point when the passion is lost (for those who come in with it anyway), what replaces it is either numbness / emptiness, or cynicism. For me its cynicism definitely. I guess at this point its the same for you. Together we are the _____Cynics! Sworn to seek out optimistic and naive thinking and smite it to oblivion!!!! And our Arch Enemy being Mistress Red Dot!!!! :)

it certainly is very tempting to quit. I'd feel the same way. Actually i have felt this way on many many occasions. But from a spectators point of view, i still feel you are doing relatively well (minus the letters problem, which is a CHRONIC problem for some of us, and such stuff) Usually when these things happen its not just due to simple factors, but usually a combination of different situations resulting in the outcome. Many of which are beyond our control...or beyond our ability to do so at a certain point in time because of certain constraints placed on us.

I think _______as definitely more plans for you in future, and he is definitely an objective person. Im sure he knows what kind of person _______ is, and the morale busting effects she has on people. I wonder what he will say to you during your "de-briefing" for this case, which he said he would do. My feel is that he doesnt see it as this incident completely overwriting every good you have done since you've been here. I guess if you stay on, you will definitely go further :)


Also, dont forget. You have the support of your friends, ______. All these people i dare say care very much about you and will be there if you need anything.
Not to mention Him, who is always there watching over you. Whatever it is, im sure we can overcome it. Let the bitterness flow through you now because its the dominant emotion, but then step back and pray. Hopefully with His help, it will flow out of you and move on. People who do this to you i.e. ________, will have to reap the rotten fruit of their actions eventually. My guess is she will have plenty to reap, a lot to answer for....This is an idealogy that I have always held fast to and was just discussing with HH just now. He is also a big fan of Karma. You can get through this. You have so many people behind you, as well as divine help.


p.s funny right for a period of time, you were advising me not to quit. Now its my turn :) we both need to support each other and take turns to do this

shit

not for the eyes of many

True Sunday

A true sunday is a sunday ...

with a relaxed mind...

without obligations ...

(no we did not skip church.... we go to saturday service.. bleah)

Dan & I had the whole apartment to ourselves cos his parents are away (actually, they are staying in malaysia for these 2 weeks.. weekdays we kind of dont feel it because we work so late and get back to bathe, watch an episode of xfiles/allymcbeal/friends and sleep)

We woke up late cos we stayed up t0 watch jacky wu shows last night..

Walked over to rail mall... and had breakfast

Can u believe how close this nice place is...

anyway i didnt take those pics cos no one carries a camera to breakfast

but yep

anyway we had brunch at Ah Mei kaya toast

and went on to execute the plan... marketing at Cold Storage!

we grabbed these

- 2 canned curry (Dan does not have a lot of faith in my cooking so im going to prove him wrong, u'll see... nah anyway these are for the rest of the week)

- a pack of large british sausages

- one onion (30 cents)

- a pack of minced beef

- Ragueletto pasta sauce

- macaroni

- Laughing cow cheese cubes

- orange juice

- chips

- magazines...

aw aw wonderful sunday...

den it rained and we went back.

And started cleaning up! swept, cleaned, wiped, organised...

hot so went for a bath and started to surf a little in the living room.... when i realise how nice the view is...

yeah there is a pool view and all

but im starting to like the living room...

nice and quiet place

ok anyway from my market-ing list you'd probably have guessed what we wanted to make...

actually I cooked... its a gift to Dan cos he is so sweet but i am so poor...

MEAT SAUCE w Diced ONIONS + mushrooms MACARONI BOLOGNAISE!!!

If you think it looks gross, its NOT.. i think its actually q yummy given this is my first try

and its not easy leh... have to dice garlic and onions and fry the meat and stuff

But Dan is very happy with it

Cos I am the first galfriend to cook for him..

And he is the first boyfriend I cooked for (maggie mee not included)

and he is also the first guy who cooked for me ( a whole yummy american breakfast back on my birthday.. with yucky coffee made with love)

*** I wish every Sunday can be like this ****

Thank You for this Sunday, the rest, the food, the company...

Kate multicolore

Dan bought me something that really cheered me up...

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Monogram Multicolore Kate !

So pretty!!! I love it

He kind of tricked me into letting him buy it..

nvm the process, but how sweet!

He knows how much i like it, but how poor i am and must risk it being unavailable or increase in price by the time im back from tokyo and go back to normal financial status

im too poor now to buy him anything back, but he doesnt mind.. but come payday, i wanna buy him the HTC diamond phone he is lemming for..

awwww...

anyway i just realised he bought me all my LVs

and this is my 7th designer item....

Goodness, it is a disease, an addiction...

please cure me.

Thank you.. For Lord you triumph over the fear that the devil causes.. the devil's evil doings

Even if the reporter decides to do the article in the end...

I still know I walk fearless in Your divine majesty...

And thank you.. for Dan.. not because of the gifts, but for his heart in always being there and seeking to make me happy.. no matter how work screws me up....

this is a v stressful period for you. if i was in your position, i would definitely feel like quitting too.

it is definitely not you. You are already trying your best. But eventually there is a limit to how much a person can do. They cannot just pile work on people and expect them to devote every waking moment to their work. You are doing your best, but of course have limits to how much you can do in a day before you keel over from exhaustion. You should not blame yourself for this.  Anyone with eyes can tell that you are being overworked to your limit and beyond. as long as you do not say anything, they will just keep loading and loading. thats how it is. Is it the system? probably.

I understand the necessity for the system because it is a product of the environment and its demands. So who suffers? The people in it. Yet at the same time theres nothing that can be done about it. I am one of those who used to blame the system, but now realised theres no point. No one man can change things, because it is inter-linked with society and how it functions. in the end, its always up to the individual to decide how much they want to give. If they are perceived as to not giving enough, they get blamed, if they give too much and other aspects of their life (health, family etc) suffer, the people int he system will jsut say its poor life management or whats that new buzz word thats going round nowadays "Work Life Harmony" = Poor Work Life Harmony, and just brush it off.

as far as im concerned, the whole situation you are in now, you are not to be blamed. if anyone does blame you within my earshot, i will defend your position at all cost

1 more day

Sorry, the article will be out tomorrow cos the media had more enquiries

one more day


its like waiting for death

sqa suicide

The reporter insist to cover the story
It will be out tomorrow
My case
My lack of confidence back then in my own judgement...

Is now potentially the lethal weapon that can destroy all my good and hard work all these time.

*******
Lauban is still very nice to me about it.. even in the midst of fighting this big fire I have lapsed a few times by not being thorough in my report, typo errors, sentences that did not make sense, weird numberings in a reply to be signed off by him

he just said "xiao jie ar"
when he could have just yelled at me then and there

He did not reveal my identity as the officer who lacked discretion

He emailed me to say that he had been through more fatal cases. He accepts learning from mistake so long as we dont repeat it, and told me "da nan bu si, bi you hou fu"

sigh

how can i ever make up for this?

funny

-screened-
perhaps some people's ego would not be able take it

C902 tryout

Dan bought a C902

For like $700 bucks.. but he really liked it

Try out pics

Taken on our way to work...

I looked like im photoshopped in cos the sunlight fell in at that moment on my side of the car

but the effect is q special la...

Dan got me a faeces stick... cos i stink!!

So I serve him Dung Dining

hhahaha just for fun...

Note:

I had a heavy nosebleed last week and a slight one today..

Yesterday, after presentation to CEO, i sat there looking so glazed and pale everyone started asking me if im ok... And that was the most tired ive felt , ever. I was not this tired when i used to stay up overnight and stuff

I hope im ok... But in any case, I thank God for each day im kept alive

wk

- Screened-

pointless to put a knife in your hands, you're just gonna have to try harder to stab me

Trip Confirmed

Went with a rather gloomy Dan to book our tickets!!!

Dan is gloomy cos of work. It happens every monday :S


but...


YAY TOKYO!!!

leaving on 26 Aug at Midnight. will arrive at tokyo in the morning...

night flight! ive never been on one...

I alway craved flying at night.. been at the airport at night.. so peaceful... not like the daytime rushing business crowd with yelling kids


TOKYO... countdown.. 2 months 10 days!!!

next up

It is confirmed (at least between Dan n I)

.....

WE ARE GOING TO TOKYO!!!!!!

Lalaaalaalalallalallaa!!!!

Tentative date of departure is 25 Aug.. going from Monday to Friday. I CAN'T WAIT!

Ive been working for like forever

At most been to Bangkok forever...

Or Peaceful Perth, nice but hard to get pretty things..

BUT TOKYO TOKYO TOKYO!

$1.4K Travel package... (F&E only leh) with no airport transfer!!! Madness

but i dont care. im gonna eat Gardenia Bread with butter just to go there... hahahha... and no buying bags for the moment..

I cant help but already google for photos first. having Japan-Fever

Beautiful Shinjuku....

And i definitely wanna go Tokyo Disneyland.. no matter how broke i am

And ITS THE the land of FANCL... i swear by Fancl now.. i have moved to now using their entire line of skincare because hey, its the only true fragrance-free and preservative-free products and the quality is like super good

Now, I have their

- Mild Cleansing Oil.. best product for makeup removal

- Washing powder and powder puff

- Lotion Light, which is a toner

- Milky Lotion Light, the best moisturizer ever. not sticky if u buy the "light" series

- Whitening essence ($60+ a bottle!) but its grapefruit essence...

- Sunguard

- Body milk

And I have accumulated $20 over in my Freshness program

and I heard in Japan, fancl is so much cheaper

I bought this at Fancl that day... u take a look and tell me if u can resist it

Limited Edition Washing powder... so cute rite!!!!

I am so so so looking forward to the trip.. i need this break so bad. one indication is I am using last year's rollover leave to go on this trip. that bad

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Thankful for

1) Of cos my Dad on Father's Day.. He is a great Dad despite anything. Maybe he is not the richest dad or most pampering one. But he did sacrifice his own happiness just to bring us up.

Lord, Please bless him with salvation and good health....

2) God's presence.. especially strong during the recent services I attended. In everything. Thank you for being there when I prayed for Alex...

it was the first time i prayed for an appellant. I have never ever liked one...

I know God you are there... when I prayed

I know God you are in his life...

Thank you

i love my BOL gals

Met my BOL gals last nite

BOL= Burst out Laughing
hahaa


When we get together, its constant "WAHAHAHAH" that comes from the bottom of our hearts



Cos its truly funny... stuff like how PS speculates that the jake-guy was terminally ill... and how Joyz had this whole script thought up



Gal: Why are you breaking up with me? Are u terminally ill?

Guy: No

Gal: Then why can we work things out

Guy : We cant?

Gal : What is the real reason? Why cant we be together

Guy: I have no confidence in our relationship

Gal : Ok, then I hope you will be terminally ill



Joyz got tormented for her "banquent" dress theme going on that day

* pls note. the butler has that towel thing on her arm.. totally into her role

I really miss my BOL gals

****** My thank you note to God *******

I need to thank God for something daily.. no matter if im happy or sad or angry or whiny...

It reminds me... I have things to thank....

11 Jun 08

1)

Im thankful for Dan's thoughtfulness. Yesterday he knew i was meeting the BOLs after work.. and he silently brought a charger to the office.

He then charged my camera to the max, and told me that I will have to take some good pics with them since I have not met them for so long...

V thoughtful...

2)

Im thankful for the position God has placed me in..

My mentee got this court case, and we asked the person down for an interview. When I saw him, my heart almost broke. He had this scared look on his face. One side of his body was crooked, his hand was totally deformed

Thank God he knew how to come here.

He is mentally retarded (certified), with celebral palsy, epilepsy etc... He was certified permanently unfit for work by the doctor. His medical bills had to be under 100% assistance. Unable to work even simple jobs, he survives on CDC's assistance of $250 a month. When he dug into his wallet for a phone number with great difficulty, I saw that he has only slightly less than 10 dollars

His bastard brother took his IC years ago and bought a car without him knowing. Got into trouble with the law and went missing 3 years ago. He has warrant of arrests against him, each one costing $400 to compound

He does not have the mental capacity to even lie to me, much less to buy a car...

He went to his MP when he started receiving letters from the Police. When his stepsister found out he went to his MP, she hit him.

He spoke randomly about his mother dying and he almost cried... I almost cried too

In the end, i sought special endorsement to cancel his cases.

Thank God I could do something....

10 times chicken rice

Today after church, Dan asked me what I felt like eating...

Told him, Chicken rice...

So he wanted to try Meritus Mandarin's famous chicken rice (actually i had far east's $4 chicken rice in mind)

But now, the restaurant had shifted to the top floor , level 38

Check out the view!!!!!

Dan is happie... (though he may look pissed at my neverending snapping)

me am happie too....

the best part is...

this was no occasion.. but he blew $78 for this dinner

this is why i love him...

(NO LA)