Yippe

My mind's going

yippie


yippie

yippie


!!!!!!


Ive cleared my cases to
0, 0, 0!!!!

Zero!
for a person often stuck with 80+ cases with differing colours
OMG ZERO!!!

(oh ya and i led my team to receive an award during our mid yr coporate sem today.. woop)


so we are outta ShitHo!
Tomolo we're flying to Bangkok!
For 6 days!
and come back to another 5 days of rest!!!


woop hoop~!

appraisal

time of the year- appraisal time


Ive had appraisal with both crazy beech and lauban. of cos i value the one with lauban more.

Im happy with myself. Cos i have no problems filling up my work review report this year. 6 items? nah! i even have to squeeze few into one! +yayas+

the one i felt most proud of: of course my event. It was just given an IMA award by management and CEO. fresh out of the oven on monday. It was the first time i attended Management meeting. super stressful.

and also, winning Service excellence in URA awards and EXSA national award. Couldnt be more thankful, as a relatively new officer in service for only 1+ yr, in a job that is hard to get acclolades

others like supervising the KM system, SLV database .. blablablabla bla

Thank God for giving me the strength and favour, over this one hectic year

Boss told me to prep for harder work. He really wants to develop his officers i guess. anyhow, some senior ppl are leaving and their portfolios cannot be left dangling. also pushed me from a half newbie to becoming more and more senior on the fast track

Lined up for next year, besides regular PLO work, and continuing my current portfolio

- implement and conduct functional training for all in the unit. on a monthly basis!
- take on mentoring new officers
- come next week, WITS leader. (argh)
- Monitor service provider
- more events! DnD

Boss told me some overwhelming news about my performance and potential...
overwhelming. i think im not that good.
its exciting and scary at the same time


and he asked me if i want to join the team to revamp our website ...
IT siahhhh


now im seriously thinking on how to have 84 hours a day

Life in pictures

Life in Pictures

(too tired to type too much)

My BF is a Porno freak

The Glee

The Drool

Im so upset, im going to sleep..

nitey

Random Photo Post

- Random Photo Post-

on a sat night..

Cant believe how much i miss Dan when we are tog 24/7 most of the time and coming close to a year, and apart for only 2 hours

i cant believe how im counting down 24 hours to seeing him

argh..

its funny.

yeah and we were just talking about how we are still so in love...

I just love his calming presence. its amazing how i have no urge to quarrel with this guy at all.

how we just enjoy peacefully listening to jazz, and staring at each other, or the tv, or talking, or drinking ...

hhaa yeah i know i sound like one of those people who declare their love for the blogsphere's knowledge

but seriously, i dont care. for all i know prob no one reads this cos its randomly updated and grossly boring

wahaha

cumon, if u know me, u'd know why. i have a job that kills my active cells by 10pm

But im thanking God for Dan everyday. among many other things of course.

He is the type who keeps me in mind and buys me a little something if he happen to be browsing the shops alone...

a mug, a cd, a cushion...

these random acts add to the sweetness

so i like random-ness

here r sum random pics

stupid looking but fresh out of the oven.. at Dan's cousin's church wedding today... he has a whooping-big family man...

his mum has like 84 siblings... haha kiddin.. about 11 i guess, but when they form families, it drives u nuts trying to remember them

nice wedding.. but they kept telling us that we are next... *sheesh*

as a kid, weddings used to be beautiful. now you grow up and look around and be cynical, u realise WOW its hellaluva stress and stuff...How a bride can look so happy, id never understand... ive only briefly helped out at someone's weddin, and i already feel the stress

that person was...

masafumi!!!

id title this pic: 2 secure men

he met Dan when they popped by at me, polly and vicky's gathering... how i miss his real-ness. I told Dan so many times about this one other than himself who can manage to be so secure about oneself.. ZH's catwalking in ji gong slippers
wahahha whack

Title of photo: Dan's frame (duh)
picked these with him couple of months ago... liked the sleek black look
i told him it made him look "bu jian dan" (complex)


now who would dare mess with him stilll?!



Now for a glimpse at the people i work with


but first...

MY FAVORITE BABY!!!

Baby Kaden!! He is my team leader's boy.. just turned one. absolutely sweet natured and obedient...

Laoda knows who to pass her baby too when we work on sats and she brings him. Straight to Meee... cos i bought him lotsa nice clothes and toys u see...

if im ever having a kid, id pray for one with his temperament. He is an absolute angel! the worst side of his ive seen was just a few whimpers... awwww'

Wanna look at his gorgeous mummy?

my hot and sweet laoda... whose age i wont bother revealing because you wont believe. and how lucky can one be to give birth and gain a hot figure!

I believe God blesses the good. she is too kind at times, and i hate the way work is often piled on her because she is uncomplaining, and hate how some evil people can still criticise her for procastinating 1000 billion other tasks.

But she is blessed, with a good family, good parents, good hubby and baby kaden!!

another one in our team

jass, our team baby, so far. cute and weird and i like her for it. she uses a hole-puncher cardboard box as a pencil case. and apparently, she thinks its good!

ok im tired of uploading pics.. meeting my bros in a while... gonna go brewerks and get me really drunk!!! Cnyah!

SHH

Ive always thought that the media of Sg is a tool for propagating the govt's desires. (yeah i do have my skeptic citizen moments too)

ok, i'll loosely associate the govt to public service.

but NOOOO...

http://motoring.asiaone.com/Motoring/News/Story/A1Story20070918-25886.html

Apparently, if you have read the full report on todays TNP front page news. this celine gal of a reporter apparently proved herself worthy to join the kopitiam ah-pehs' group of self-gratifying-lamentations-of-the-government-support-network.

It amazes me how a reporter, good enough to post a front page story, fails to get her facts right. how she willingly descends to the kopitiam-pehs' skewed perspective.

This is a court case. The magistrate has already passed the judgement.
So Ms TNP reporter thinks she has a way to tell the world that her judgement is better?
or rather, seow-guy was the victimised little angel!!

had she went through the appropriate channel, (No, Ms TNP. not by just approaching anybody in the courtroom to ask for comments), she would have known that

- this seow-guy had caused obstructions to his neighbours, who sought help from the regulatory authority
- this seow-guy has time and again appealed, but due to his gungho-thrill-seeking nature, refused to comply with any instructions about his offences
- he claims to want to seek redress in court, but ball-less-ly crawls to his MP right before the court date, to make the entire department adjourn his court date for close to 10 times.
- when his case was fixed for mention, he claimed trial. Applause for that heroic act. HERO LEH... he challenged authority leh!! he dare to stand up for rights lehhh... but when the trial date arrives, everyone was prepared and waiting in the court, HE FAILED TO SHOW UP.
duh! this guy has a warrant of arrest against him because he even disrespected a court mention enough to abscond.

Has this guy no MALICE?
And You, Ms TNP, to portray him victimised by regulations, when all he showed was blatant disregard of laws and to others?!


Go splash ur face with water, and quit

+tork cork+

I was kinda amused, but upon digestion, disgusted...
well over the last week, Lau Ban(the male one super worthy of respect) made me stay back after a meeting for a private talk
(anyway I am getting this kind of special attention nowadays, first it was that calling up to the "gord" (i dun even want to spell it that way)'s office for a nice lil chat. thought was nothing, den i had my national day holiday screwed by paranoidy Sibico telling me to beware of everyone now that i got the gord's special attention, even officers working here for 6 years higher level than i am dont get such meetings blablabla.. dont trust even those closest to you blablba)

anyway Lau Ban was super pleased with my event, one who all fear and never hesitate to painfully admonish if neccessary, was full of praises.
Anyway those were earned, im proud of it, really. to me, even the directors' opinions did not matter as much as his

well, back to the private conversation, he asked me if Dan and I were serious, and proceeded to tell me how his concern is that in the worst case scenario that things do not work out, everything will sour and all

what am i to say right. I can only promise i will do my best not to let anything affect my work

after that it was my first appraisal with him. the master of the pen-knife actually told me i can write! which was a huge huge compliment because he has personnally penned letters to the worst kind of high impact appellants, making them crawl into a hole and die.
ya and other stuff too.. basically i was just relieved to hear that he has no complaints about me


ok fair enough. coming from him. a normal person who cared about human relationships enough to have a wife and family. a person without lopsided cut of left-shoulder-length-braided, right-cropped-above-the-ear hairstyle matched with a bindi on the forehead


THEN today, paranoidy Sibico, weird female who swore death by maggots over marraige, suans people back from heart operations, a person actually WITH lopsided cut of left-shoulder-length-braided, right-cropped-above-the-ear hairstyle matched with a bindi on the forehead, breaks down from her months of denial and asked me into the room to tell me, in a speedy-stressed-flustered manner, after Dan and I submitted leave together in order to attend his grandma's bday dinner

(avoiding my eyes, hands waving )"I KNOW ABOUT YOU AND DANNY LA. ACTUALLY, I KNEW ABOUT IT LONG AGO"

to which i replied, deadpanned
"I KNOW YOU KNOW. "

she then proceeded to reject our request for leave because of quality assessment. then in a sneering manner asked

"You guys serious or not?! not serious dont need to go n meet his family rite?!"

Disgusting...
I gave her diplomatic, non-committing answers.

People at work, even my superiors, need not know so much.
I know what I want
I know what is a blessing. on the other hand, does she?

If she would take a moment to shed her hatred for so many things, she probably would understand



sigh

MY ROSE 2007-- A SUCCESS!

MY ROSE 2007-- A SUCCESS!

Allow me to brag

We got a STANDING OVATION FROM THE AUDIENCE.
first ever
Led by DIRECTOR of my division HIMSELF

I spent the whole afternoon after that reply to email and verbal congratulations.

Some emails from tha Management and Heads

Director:

"very good team effort. the amount of talent we have in CPD never fails to amaze me... "

DD

"All our VIP guests have praises and compliments for your very entertaining and creative performances in the movie... I should really thank Esther for leading the organization committee , and the 2 MCs and main actors in the movie, Danny and Angeline... You people have raised the bar and the committee next year will have a tough act to follow..."

Dpty Supt:

"This is one of the best ROSE since its inception more than a decade ago, and the first that received a standing ovation and continuous applause from an appreciative audience
well done team CPD!!
We shall go ahead to submit ROSE 2007 for IMA"


SAO

".... and great overall. It was indeed the most creative and professionally done ROSE ive attended in my years in CPD. Well done..."


EAO

"You are great!! Mou Dak Ding!!! without your precise planning and creativity, there would not have been a great show for everyone who were there ..."



HOW NOT TO BE HAPPY
HOW NOT TO BE HIGH

I MADE IT!!!

WE ALL MADE IT!!!!


I love my committee , my event, TO BITS!!!!!


*pics later*

+++ Augusty August +++

So much lined up this month...

Thursday is D Day!~
Just had a meeting with monsieur lau today. I think he is giving this non-meticulous chairlady a hand buy being strictly anal when i presented THE PLAN for him today
well, i take it in stride.
he wouldnt have bothered to call me for a meeting if he does not believe in this, or if he did not have an intention to help
not to mention, his rare enthusiasm in contributing ideas
and the IMA faith

somehow i got the hint from him that he expects more surprises from me
sigh
i'm just a lil tired
i have hit yet another highest record for outstanding cases. 55!
pathetic people are complaining all over the place already..
my warrior of a disciple is helping me clear my easier cases
i feel kinda lousy about it

My poor laoda is worried about my cases, yet v concerned about me not having a chance to have a decent lunch at all

~~~~

traaaa

anyway had a stone removed from my heart cos i just went to see Dr Liu Mang (my nick for him.. he cracks me up so much, he does not even feel like a doctor to me, more like a liu mang lawyer.. which doctors shows his gangster frustrations when flipping thru his medical books and crying out loud "where is that picture of the STUPID arch!!")

had 2 heavy nosebleeds last sat. light ones after that, and did not stop after a month of monitoring. sunday, HEAVY gum bleeding.
thought i have some form of cancer or something...
hit me that i REALLY dont want to die..

anyway he assured me that nothing was wrong (and that crap about heatiness the chinese say.. is BULLCRAP)
told me my nostril inner wall is all red. nothing to worry about. some e term thingy
gave me 3 packs of pills


whew
just as long as im not dying or something

one good thing about him, if its nothing, he'd assure u its nothing. not ambiguous referrals to scans that cos a bomb
I just LIKE to see Dr Liumang... he makes me laff and makes me feel so much better

~~

Dr Liumang asked me why i'd always have a "bodyguard" beside me when seeing him
yeah thats Dan...
He is every bit as relieved as i am when we were told that my condition is nothing to worry about
He is very very sweet.
*smiles*

The irony is, someone else intro-ed me to this doctor. But that someone has never been with me inside.

Never mind.
I am truly happy now.
Thank God

July

tried looking for a blogskin, but couldnt find any.

July is a month of mixed emotions

Note im typing this on a sunday. because i am really dead tired every other day. this week, i cant say work is killing me. after all, there is that additional one-point-something K im getting as the mid year bonus.
maybe after all, you should really work in the civil service, just not HERE.
we spent the most of this week filming for the entertainment segment of ROSE. it went well, despite having to refilm most of it due to a corrupted file.. Thank God still. as long as we can get it done.
Angie and Dan were so good at their crap on screen. their chemistry is so good that im a lil jealous. but it also mean that the show is going to be a big HIT. so i dont mind.

Its gonna be my baby. Like Dan say, we are going to push the benchmark so high, that the person appointed to be the chairman next year will stand up, pull their hair, and yell "NOOOOOOOOOO"

Im so thankful for Dan, his directing and video - sound skills makes my crap ideas into reality. And his straight-faced black humour
Its his gift, but he claims he is doing this for me. this guy really has his way with words :)

anyway the award segment clip is also half done. the filmed one had the people previewing it in stitches


under construction- but im sooo looking forward to it.


im having so little time with my family.
no energy left to do my brother's revision work.
im making up for everything with money.
terrible

and thanks to that stupid excellence award im getting, i have to go on a course with stupid other people just to get that NATIONAL award
had i known, i would have given the lousiest service in the world. just look at some other aunties in RAU dept, they have gotten away with shouting at customers and still getting long service award.
crap them too. i just snapped at one of the clerks the other day, freaking disrespectful thing.


sigh
i need like an extra battery compartment for an extra battery
help

Str

thoroughly stressed out

Monday ~ again

blogging on my laptop once again. ever since i moved this baby to Dan's, this baby has been devoid of any connection whatsoever, until last saturday, Dan's dad bought a router. (initially they wanted to wait for the new wave of new version routers that would render all existing routers obsolete...
Yay i can finally surf on my zeng-ka-sui-sui lappie again. the under-utilization did bothered me a lil.


Finished Mitch Albom's For One More day. How he manage to do that to his readers all the time, id never know. but it left me nostalgic, and loving my Dad even more.
I can never do enough for him...
Even if i fork out money til im poor now to purchase him little enjoyments...
Picking up the bills and summonses.
Buying him lil gadgets , and having them entice people to break into his car in the middle of the night

I can never do enough.
I want to do more.

sigh~

yeah its another monday ... 567890 other people are whining about their monday blues right now. im glad im not alone.
Id be starting to read this book Dan got me when he was lone browsing at kinokuniya. "Dogs Dont Bite, When a Growl will do"
Flipped it. showed us little stories and examples on what we can learn from the furry ones, how we should be as obsessed about being happy as they are

Dan is so sweet... its nice to know that he is looking out for something nice for me when he could have just been browsing through metal mags, or porn... ahahha

tempted him to buy Maxim that day. He did. the top 100 list series...

im just trying my best to be understanding. but frankly speaking, bf buying maxim does not bother me. cum'on .. depriving him will only drive him to watch porn when u are bathing

happy sigh~

stressed out by upcoming ROSE. esp when i went to take a look at the function hall.


My event, my baby, is taking place here in less than 2 months.

I cant believe it.


So unprepared....

+ one of the bad days+

1.
Chao ONZ new security guard, awed at the powers vested in him, STOPPED me for my staff pass, when Dan was right beside me flashing his, yet this old man could not just let it pass.
and so happened i forgot my pass today. How nice


2.
stupid external, speak-to-ants-yet-long-winded-like-siao-anonymous caller got transferred to my direct line without notification. with my patience wearing thin, while speaking to her and hardly hearing a thing, i missed 2 calls from my dad


3.
called back dad. told me the news. car's window/winscreen got SMASHED in the middle of the night. apparently the cheapskate had his eyes on the bluetooth device i gave him.
Prob too flashy but i did not know people can be THAT cheap.
pls. u can get a full set at $90 outside. what is the point of stealing that device without the charger and stuff, which u cant use anyway.
Like u'd have a car if you are so cheap
and took my dad's cashcard too

My dad did nothing to deserve this. im amazed that he can even joke about it..

sigh

Never mind I dont decide your fate, cheapo! SomeOne else does. and you face Him yourself.
all i can do is not to curse you because this falls in a book SOMEWHERE out there which is not for me to pass a verdict on

You too have a dad.
you should know no one wants their dad to go to their car to see it being smashed up like that

pondering

think this had been a day of deep talking

its probably the job, i realise how i hv never really talked about these things
today is one of the swarovski saturdays that Dan n I need not work. we lazed and had lunch at Mayim, den a long tea session at TCC

besides bitching about work (as usual), talking about the phone whore's next phone purchase, we touched on a lot about our loved ones, lessons in life and most importantly something that struck me-- Finances

Met up with Brudders (of 7 yrs, can u believe it) and had the same talk, trying to convince feiju on the neccessity of financial stability

The topic kinda hit me a few days ago, when jelly told us her fixed deposit is up and she is doing bank shopping. and she has concrete plans with her CPF investments.

well comparatively, im not v well prepared. I have only one savings plan to cover my ass but its supposed to mature only when im old and wrinkled. and a statement by Dan's Dad kept ranging in my head: no matter how hard you save, one disease is enough to wipe it out

so besides cutting down on the MSG intake, we really have a lot to think about. Dan is luckier, being the only child, his dad has guided him well on the investments and stuff. all he has to think about now is whether to increase the amount dedicated to that.. how much to increase. plus he has less bills to worry about and no one else to support. Now he is worrying about saving for our future (hopefully), which i think is really sweet:)

but ME. hey. splurging for the moment, blablabla.
i should do something with the money i have left after paying for bills and random stuff.
should speak to Penny soon, to do some investments
should start some fixed deposit soon

*sigh*

money money money

Mambo nite REVISITED

dun get me wrong because im not some 23 yr ol who has not outgrown chionging...

I know im kinda too old for doing that.. the yawning at 9 or 10pm is enough testimony to that. but upon spotting a Public Holiday falling on a thurs, it leaves having a can-afford-to-stay-up-late wednesday nite being too good to go to waste

Missin the good ol days, Dan, me, laoshu and pigu decided to revisit MAMBO nite. and since Dan gets to go, they brought their bfs along as well. so its like a gals nite out with a dedicated bodyguard each, throughout.

well zouk turned out to be an area of madness, so we changed plans and went to MOS.

Pigu bought a new phone. SE k550i. so this is the night-power trial results of her cybershot camera

The Babes

and my bodyguard! haha. we knew each other dancing, so it feel great to be dancing with him again

No idea why he looked so high

I have the best colleagues in the world!!

u noe

You know you are devoting too much of ur brain to work if you start keying in your office domain password when signing in to home entertainment sites (no i dont mean porn)



sigh.

On a brighter note we held our Stage 1 commencing meeting for the award ceremony. was relieved and glad that the committee members actually came up with pretty good ideas to spice up the event. Im sure this will be a memorable one. unlike past years' 1)Guests seated 2) Opening 3)typical skit 4) Award*yawn*Presentation



this one's gonna be good. HAHA to the successor man. gonna be so stressed when reminded of "THE ONE THAT ESTHER DID" HAR HAR HAR
(just like my xmas event last year, which i am very very proud of)



of course, couldnt have done anything without my gals and Dan. not meaning for it to sound like an oscar winning speech, i really mean it

anticipating... really.



(events' not really what im good at, despite popular belief. but sigh... given and taken, i have to do a good job.
Im going reject them if they ask me to do DnD next year though. come'on! im not some rec com queen.)

Anyway, currently bioing these

1) Palm LifeDrive - will cost me $400 over if i get one

2) Dopod 818- $468

Tech-whore-wannabe

slap me slap me slap me

award!

back from my break to a pleasant surprise

I'm getting a Service Excellence Award for 2006

my first time so im getting the commendable service award. $50 bucks plus a plaque and flashing of my photo on the screen during the award ceremony in July +cringes+

but still.. YAY!

(shhh dont tell anyone i curse the moment they go out of the door)

Spring break ~ continue woo hooping!

Spring break ~ continue woo hooping!

Day 2 : to JB

Had really nice hainanese beef noodles- discovered by Dan's parents. den headed to city square, haven been there for a LONG time. still a very singaporean mall..

Browsed around and bought a really deserving pouch for my Shine

almost RM$50, but who cares

its good looking

Dan and i fooling around at Coffee Bean while waiting for his parents

Attacking into the cake

Fork you?!

Following that, went to some tariff free zone to drink tariff free beer before we went to visit Dan's grandma.. a very sweet grandma, whose first questions to me included "Do u go to church?"

aww

nice dinner, went back to stay for the night, had a nice lil chat with his grandma..

Day 3: Back to SG

happened to be our half-year anniversary. I still consider it a feat to come to this point without quarrelling and still being so thankful to God for each other

+crosses fingers+

Pasta Fresca @ Sixth Avenue- clocked longest serving time ever, but the excellent service makes it hard to be even the slightest bit mad at the waiter who forgot to key in our order (both himself and the manager apologized everytime they passed our table during the wait, and the soup + extra garlic bread- on the house! Not cheapskate but very impressive service recovery. definitely going back)

we had a good meaningful talk about life's lessons. harsh as they may be at the point of suffering, and never knowing when it will be ending, if ever

but it does. look back, and everything falls into place

So in celebration to all the ups and downs in life, that has happened, and will happen...

Here is a we-kay-kiang-ordered large pint of Hoegaarden

In His will, i place my trust

Spring Break~ woo hoop!

I'd call this my spring break.

its TIME.. its TIME

feels so good when my biological alarm went off at like 6/7pm and i say "nah~! who cares?" and go back to sleep

and so good to wake up at 9am and laze around

Planned to eat mac's breakfast with Dan but his mom offered home cooked mee sua soup (with wine n chicken).. awww who could resist?!
and i really like to see Dan making her happy. its hard for an only child, and a mom of an only child..

watched SPIDERMAN3 FOC at 1.50pm (courtesy of LG shine roadshow freebies)
No queue for tix, great seats, no queue for popcorn, almost empty shaw 2 theater all to ourselves

walked around at marks and spencer, bought like 2 cans of winter vege soup and redcurrant puffs (they're so good, i tell u)

had burger with a not v crowded orchard crowd..

went to buy a FFF (for fun fone) for Dan..

ate porridge

now home

NOT TIRED at all. None of the "how many letters have i cleared today?" "how about this ad hoc sheet have i done it?" worries hanging about my head

off to JB tommorow..

I'm so happy, my mind is totally OFF work.
I dont care

My break, my entitlement~

i got my new phone!!

My comfort from all the driven-slave frustrations

metallic body..

autofocus camera.. which means awesome pictures

document viewer too!!

Never mind that it costs me almost 600 bucks.. i promise i will upload more pics!!

why did i even put up with LG chocolate for 6 months?!

if you think you are good at something, there is always someone else better